|follow in my footsteps|
Two weeks into this season...my daughter was not feeling it. Every day after practice should we be crying and upset. She was saying how she is missing time with her friends to do something she really didn't want to do to begin with. I explained that I would be there every week coaching and she would have to be there with me either way. I explained about her friends being there to run along side of her on the days she didn't have the energy or desire. I would go in at night to give her a kiss goodnight and she would be so very upset. She finally broke down and told me that she really doesn't want to do running club, but she know how much I love running so she does not want to let me down.
UGH! Punch to the gut a million times in a row. I was at a loss. I felt like I failed! It was a cross road and I didn't want her to take the place of a kid that truly wanted to be there. I wanted to encourage and motivate and did not want to push and turn a deaf ear to her reasons. She does not have to love running. She does not even have to like it. She has been to many races to cheer and support, she sees the training that her parents put forth to propel themselves forward in our crazy adventures. She knows all the smiles and love I have for my running community. She doesn't want to do it. It was a tough mommy moment for sure.
I brought her into my room that night a few weeks back and told her to give it one more week and if she really didn't want to do it, she could stop. In a selfish attempt to keep her going, I told her that she did not have to do the 5k race at the end of the season if she didn't want to. I asked her to try her best at each practice and if she just kept doing that, I would be very proud. The mommy runner part of me broke a little bit. The coach that tries to inspire these little feet felt like I let her down. We were both kinda sad and a bit let down by each other. We agreed to this plan and with race day two weeks away she is still not signed up...it kills me but I am okay with that.
|some days she is my running buddy|
Embrace the suck..choose you...happy mother's day...love those monkeys.