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While our leader was discussing the upcoming season of children's choir she mentioned the ages of the members of choir and called out to my five year old specifically saying how happy she was that she was finally old enough to join in. Within a second of that special announcement my little sweetie turned her head so quickly on a swivel and smiled with glee and excitement at me that she is finally big enough to sing in the choir. Her innocence and sweet eyes get me every day...she brings so much to our family...making me laugh out loud when she leans over the older kids shoulders while they are reading and says...it's okay...I can't read anyway!
Next up is the big guy. Not only is he almost as tall as me but his heart is big enough for our whole family to fit in to. He takes the time when he walks in the door after school to go around to each of his siblings and give them a kiss on the head. He asks them each how their day was and then he circles around to me. After he completed his Family Consumer Science Project last night which consisted of him making meatloaf, roasted sweet potatoes, asparagus and cleaning all the dishes he gave me a huge hug and said, I have no idea how you do this every day. Me either buddy, me either. Thank you for always knowing when I need a hug and pitching in without asking...you are my number one helper.
Last up is my baby boy. I keep referring to him as the baby but he will be four in just a few months. There is nothing baby about him other then his tantrums that he can get away with from time to time as he is still three. He is the hug and play magnet in the house, everyone needs to know what he is up to and wants to be a part of it. His laughter is medicine for all of us and his smile can brighten anyone's mood. He puts out his hand to hold mine as we walk into the grocery store or head to the corner to get the "big kids" from the bus. He doesn't know of a life that consists of just him...his life is filled with so many people that love him that he can't help but give that love back to all of us.
For all the times I hear that the days are long and the years are short...I know this to be true...I also know that before I know it the years will be long behind me and the days will be short ahead and my kids will be grown and on their own and all of this will hopefully be an amazing memory in their hearts. My little one just asked how I can come up with all of these words...and I guess in all of my chaos of life with four kids, a hubby and running endless miles and trying to keep us all together...I have a lot of time in my own head. I take my alone time on the road while running to breath quietly, I try to think of my kids and what they have going on. I try not to focus on the pressures of it all and trying to solve the problems that are upon us, instead I take that time to reflect on the good...it helps the miles tick by more quickly. Sometimes I just think of the tree I need to reach to get to the top of the hill.
Embrace the suck...choose you...slow it down and hold on to it before it's over.