We set our own limitations and I do not consider myself superwoman...I am a mom with four kiddos, a spouse that works his butt off, a friend that tries her best to help when you ask or don't, and a woman who wants to not lose sight of herself in the process.
When I started running 8 years ago I thought it would be something I would do for a bit to get me back into shape. I then realized that it will in fact get and KEEP me in shape...and I found that I truly enjoy it. I love how I feel when a run is complete...not just because it is done...but I feel whole. I have seen a meme that says it's funny how the most exhausting thing I do all day is the most relaxing. I totally get that!! I don't think I set out to be a runner who is trying for big lofty goals. I think that my relationship with fitness evolved much like my relationship with all things...my husband, food, a new friend. It was not love at first sight but over time I knew it was something that would complete me.
My fitness goals became bigger, stronger, more precise and with that my plans had to change. I was not trying to be perfect or number one...I was just trying to be right for me. I hold myself to high standards...ones that I set myself. The only one that knows if I am meeting my goals is me...and well you if I happen to write about it ;) I could have kept chugging along and being mildly active in my running and fitness dreams or I could go all in. I could hope and dream bigger than I thought I would ever want to.
2015 NJ Marathon |
some runs didn't go as planned |
So...will it work?? Who knows...but I will not go into next Sunday with any doubt that I did not train my butt off, make sacrifices, run when I wanted to quit, endure nature's elements and time crunches that were against me...I have worked so very hard for this race. I did not set any limitations for myself, I choose me and my goal and had the support of those around me. That is something I am very proud of...nothing that I am looking for accolades for...just letting you know that hard is not impossible.
"hoodie half" and my support crew |
Embrace the suck...choose you...go ALL IN!