The thing that gets me through those days, other than starting the day off with a great workout, is the company I keep. Community is such an important part of life and having people that are amazing sounding boards for all the many spaces of life make this journey that much more rewarding. Having the resource to talk about so many different topics that trigger your frustration or excitement makes tackling that obstacle so much easier. These are people that genuinely want to help, are here to help, and all you need to do is ask. Something that is so hard, asking for help but so rewarding to both sides when it happens!
|my crazy crew|
I am lucky in a way that I had my hubby by my side, literally, during my training for my April marathon. His ongoing support of me was one for the record books. He made mid day runs possible, he joined me for many of them, we talked shop daily, and he keep the positive vibes flowing. He never doubted me and never let me doubt me either. He is one amazing cheerleader and husband. Being dedicated to something or someone when you may have your own set of doubts is not easy. We both learned a lesson this year. We learned how to persevere, to push forward, to keep going when you want to stop. Sure we do this with our workouts but regular life does not always afford the same level of challenge. This year we were given a new test.
He was home with me and the kids for six months. Our community supported us in every way possible. Sometimes things just have a way of working out and the hard work you put forth is finally rewarded. Now that we are back in our old routine we miss him, especially the little guy that would have picnic lunches mid week while the big kids were at school. The special things that happened while he was home drew us all closer together, at times maybe it was too much, but now that we are on the other side of this, I am bizarrely grateful.
There are so many days that just don't make sense, things that happen and we just don't understand why. So many times I would love to just scream my head off and find myself alone for any amount of time to just have silence. But after going through this year, and being on the other side, I am thankful for the crazy, for the daily tests, for the ongoing challenges. What we do every day molds us into who we choose to be. I choose to be positive, loving, happy, determined, driven but also sad, lonely, and tired. What I have learned is that I have amazing support to help me get out of those low places and lift me up...and lift up my family as well. We all have off days but we all have a community around you...just don't forget to reach out to them. People are wanting to help...it makes them feel good...and it will make you feel good too!
So week two of summer is coming to a close. I am tying my best to keep some semblance of order in the house but six bodies and 100 pool towels every day is A LOT! We are just going to keep on keeping on and roll with the whirlwind. I thank each of you for being a part of my community on some level and please know that I love to help and always have an open ear!!
Enjoy this time...it won't last forever!
Embrace the suck...choose you...keep on keeping on ;)