-I am messy
-I am a grazer
-I have a sweet tooth
-I often have dark circles under my eyes
-I seldom say no to things
-I don't have immediate family near by
-I can rarely say no to dessert
-I am a big time procrastinator
-I am stubborn
-I yell at my kids
-I go a day without giving my hubby a kiss
-I am not artistic
Things I like about myself
-I am a mulitasker
-I am a good mom
-I am a supportive wife
-I will always try my best
-I love a good challenge
-I speak my mind
-I am not afraid
-I have faith
-I lead by example
-I will walk the path alone
-I would do anything for my family
-I think outside the box
-I believe in myself
So great...I made a list of the good and the bad. What is the point of this?? I need to remind myself that faults are good. Faults allow you to see the good. Faults show you where you put attention. Faults show you that you are human and and that there is always room for growth. I just had another discussion with my four year old. For as sweet and lovable as he is...he is still four and is learning to test his boundaries with me and everyone he encounters. I see him duplicate motions and words and tones that he sees from those around him. I had to tell him that I am done with the yelling and we will work through this together. I used small words, talked slow, and in a quiet voice. I stopped what I was doing and took the time to have him understand my frustration as well as his. Wouldn't that be nice if all adults would do the same. If we would just take the time to truly interact and explain our feelings. Apologies can be said but the feelings are still true. His current fault brought out some of my current strengths. Together we are balanced out and we need to realize that we can do this with everyone we are with.
Social media brings so much judging and comparing and putting down. When I see a friend kick butt on her run or sign up for some big momma race that I would never have the guts to do...I am not jealous of her, well maybe for a hot second, but I am in awe of her. I am in awe that despite her doubts and dislikes, she is pushing though to release the strength and likes. There is nothing I should do but lift her up, encourage her, and help her along the journey. I know that we all have struggles and we all have skeletons in our closets, but together we work through them. I have had so many great run therapy sessions with friends and even some ladies I may have run with for the first time have been great connections. The different perspectives from other people I have met brings such a great spin to this journey. Makes my likes and dislikes blend into one.
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| oversharer & overcarer |
So make your list and get it out of your head. Find the people that lift you up, that compliment your faults, that you can help. Know you are far from perfect and some of the things that you like about yourself may be viewed as faults by others. But, as I have drilled into my head so many times...other people's thoughts do not matter. This journey is about you, what you want for yourself and believing in you! Confidence is an amazing thing...stand tall...be proud...tackle the challenge...do the hard things...accept your faults...embrace your strengths.
Choose you...embrace the suck...be more human.
